Monday, February 26, 2018

Written Violence Examination: Caveman to Ancient Greeks to You

Parkland. Columbine. Sandyhook. These atrocities happened. There is no avoiding it.

I will not discuss gun reform. I will not go into the law of the land. I am not a politician or an activist in the sense that I charge the streets. No, I am an author. My job is to write about the nature of humanity, both the good and the bad.

 Now that that is out of the way lets get to work.

Ever since the cavemen there has been violence written down. True, theirs was nonfiction. It was a tool used to capture history and remember how to hunt and scavenge. As time past people became restless and that tool became a means of entertainment. Stories of great hunts and mighty battles were told by campfires, and then written down so they weren’t forgotten. Eventually the creative genius that sparked fire imagined new epic tales.

Let us examine the Greeks. Their grand stories are full of sex, drugs, violence, love, greed, bestiality and inbreeding. That doesn’t cover half of what the stories entail. Hercules was a drunk with PTSD who went on killing sprees. He killed Death itself. There is a part of our body named after the weak spot of a mighty warrior. I’m sure you know it. It is your Achilles’ Tendon. He was unbeaten until he faced weak, little Paris in Troy. Troy –We’re still making movies about that war.

Greek tragedies live to this day. They are required reading. Why? They examine our basic selves. In thousands of years we haven’t changed all that much as a species. Sure our tools have grown, but have we?


Before we can change the world we need to change ourselves. The first step is owning the fact we are human. Nothing more. Nothing less. There is nothing wrong with that fact. Feel it. Revel in it. All the facets of being mortal, maybe then you’ll see where the real problem is coming from: fear.

Monday, June 26, 2017

Branding Breaks My Heart

For those of us who struggle with depression or that voice in our head that screams at us every day, “You’re not enough!” then branding is a bitch.

Branding is a key component to marketing. It tells the world who you are as an author. What happens if you don’t know you who are? If you spend hours upon hours trying to figure that out, but you don’t want stigmatize your brand?

“Oh, look there goes that indie author”.

“What’s her name?”

“I don’t know. But doesn’t isn’t she, like, always whining about her stupid PTSD. Grow a pair. I mean, like, come on. lol”

Branding is that red-hot poker that leaves its mark on my forehead. It covers my thirdeye. Scar tissue blinds me, making things hard to write. The sigil blocks readers from looking past it to read the stories I create.

The usages of branding are important in this webbed world. It will allow me to stick out like a sore thumb or a green thumb or a goth thumb or a Christian thumb or an entrepreneurial thumb, the list goes on.

When we sit back and think about big name authors we think of their books, maybe their personalities and get a feel for them. A sense of their brand, right? Laurell K. Hamilton is a pagan who loves wolves. Stephen King loves Maine, is creepy, highly intelligent, and funny. Anne Rice is an oddball. That is where I’ll leave that. We all know J.K. Rowling’s rags to riches story. Is that their brand or just who they are? Is it one and the same?

Would my brand then be: I’m a quirky nerd riddled with depression, who loves her family, pets, all things otherworldly and stands up for equality. Is that my brand? Is it truly that simple? 

Maybe it doesn’t matter if people joke about my mental issues or not. If they did they wouldn’t be my target audience. And who knows perhaps one day word of mouth will get so big those people will look past those stereotypes and read my work.


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Monday, June 19, 2017

Books versus Movies


Neil Gaimen’s American Gods season one aired last night, Sunday June 18. It was everything I expected from the creative genius. Trippy. Questioned boundaries and stereotypes. Beautiful. But did it add up to the same experience as the book?

I realize that is a series, not a movie. Hear me out. There are dozens of examples. Hollywood seems hard press to find an original idea. I can’t turn my head without seeing a book turning into a movie. Is this a bad thing?

First there are the children’s books. Lemony Snicket’s Series of Unfortunate Events had a movie made back in 2004 starring Jim Carrey. Now on Netflix it is an actual series with Neil Patrick Harris. Both widely popular in there own right. The books have been adorn by all ages since they were published in September 1999.

Then there is Captain Underpants by Dav Pikey. This movie stars the voice talents of Kevin Hart, Ed Helms, and Nick Kroll. It got 85% at Rotten Tomato. I know my second eldest and youngest absolutely loved reading the books when they were younger.

Going up to the more adult ages we can move up to comics, graphic novels, novellas, speculative fiction and literary novels.

Two words: Superheroes Rule!

From Deadpool to Wonder Woman to Hellboy – I love superheroes. I cannot get enough of them. My love is feeding the frenzy and I don’t mind that one bit. I’m a nerd. Correction: I am a PROUD nerd. My kids are proud nerds, too, in one form or another.

This leads us to graphic novels. Wolverine: Origin Book 1, I own this graphic novel (shocker) was beautiful. They did one thing right. Logan has bone claws. Tada! The rest you need to read. That is a major downside to books versus movies –the changes. In Deadpool Negasonic Teenage Warhead made things go boom. That is not the case in the few comic panels she was in. She actually told the future and died very, very quickly.

As for novellas, lets examine Will Smith in I Am Legend by Richard Matheson or Isaac Asimov’s I,Robot (correction this is a collection of short stories). Neither is what was portrayed on film. They are action packed films. Both question humanity. I thoroughly enjoy the director’s cut of I Am Legend. I, Robot is written from the robot’s perspective. It is inventive. No pun intended.

Aside from comic books lets list the books made into a movie or show in the last couple years
  • The Shack
  • Hidden Figures
  • Live By Night
  • Fifty Shades of Grey
  • Fifty Shade Darker
  • Before I Fall
  • The Sense of Ending
  • The Zookeeper's Wife
  • Berlin Station
  • Everything, Everything
  • Shadow Hunters
  • The Vampire Diaries
  • Riverdale
  • The Leftovers
  • Outlander
  • The White Queen
  • The White Princess
  • The Handmaiden's Tale
  • My Cousin Rachel
  • Spectrum
  • The Dark Tower
  • The Mist
  • It
  • Thank You For Your Service
  • Big Little Lies
  • Sharp Objects
The list goes on and on. No wonder readers aren't reading that much any more. Their mentality is, "Hey, if it is any good they make a movie or show out of it." Why should they spend hours reading when they can lounge on the couch and have the story beamed into their brain?
Now more than ever is the time to make your story stand out from the rest of the pack. Yes, stand by your fellow author. Hold one another up. The main take-away....

Make every word count because people's attention span is fle -SQUIRREL! 

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Monday, March 20, 2017

Different Strokes For Some Day Folks


They say things come in threes. The past six months stayed true to form. Three strokes felt by three different people every couple of months. It was like strokes became Number 1 on Oprah’s Favorite List and she was handing them out to everybody, myself included.

February 10, 2017 I was rushed to the emergency room. My left arm, both legs, neck and face tingled like those bits had fallen asleep and refused to wake up. My chest ached. The room spun. Though I could speak it was slow. They ran me through so many tests that by Sunday they couldn’t run any more because the dye used in the CT and MRI scans had ravaged my kidneys. But that is okay, the diagnosis was confirmed.

Some time in the past I had suffered one or two silent strokes. They couldn’t tell exactly how many because there are two places in my brain that have scar tissue. There is no way to determine if those occurred at the same time or not. The next bit of info makes me feel like Wolverine.

The small vetebral artery in my neck that connects to the main banch in the brain had burst, scarred over, and created a bypass all on its own. With my bizarre sense of humor am I more like Deadpool?

These events have led me to stop saying the phrase, “Some day”. As in “Some day I’ll own a Mustang convertible” or “Some day we’ll take the kids to Disneyland” and “Some day I’ll finish writing the next great American novel”.

Well, I’ve got the Mustang.

We are planning our trip to Disney.

And I am back on the keyboard. My eyes are open. There is no “Some day”. There is “Today”.


What is your “Some day”?

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Monday, October 10, 2016

When To Put On Your Grown-Up Shoes?

Do we decide when is the right time to step into our grown-up shoes? You would think as a wife, mother, and (young) grandmother, I would already consider myself a “grown-up”, but I don’t. An adult, yes, sometimes, when I have to, but I never really considered myself that way.

As an angst-riddled teen I scribbled on my homework. I filled up more notebooks than I could count. In my late teens/ early 20’s I used to journal, still do. Birth of a Vixen’s first draft took about a year to complete. I was 27 years old when I knuckled down.

I have learned so much since then. SO MUCH. That is what I spent most of my time doing. Learning. Researching. Discovering as much about the publishing industry. That is the cool thing about the writing community. The moment you announce you are a writer you aren’t an outsider. The world opens up.

Even as I kept editing, kept tweaking, I spent seven years very slowly growing my brand because I was unsure about when I would put Birth of a Vixen out. I traveled to conferences and conventions. I became a sponge.

Now I wouldn’t pat myself on the back and say I’m any more a grown-up than I was when I started. As I type this I am also watching Marvel’s Jessica Jones, cuddling with River, and dunking chocolate chip cookies in milk. Then again being in touch with my inner child may be just what the doctor ordered.

Which leads me to my announcement. I am an author. I am an entrepreneur. To truly combine the two I have opened a boutique-publishing house: 



The biggest difference about DHP is what we plan to give back to the writing community. You may have noticed a new author name at the top of the page, Kirstin Rowan. She will be posting book reviews for authors outside of the company here. If you would like to have your book reviewed by Mrs. Rowan email delphianhopepub@gmail.com with Book Review in the subject line. She will post reviews on Thursdays.

We are not taking author submissions until January after we square away the final details. When we become open to submissions those details will be posted here and on our Facebook page.

In the future we plan on growing bigger, expanding the fandom to levels that would make everyone’s inner child squee.

We are really pumped about this idea and hope you are, too. Please let us know what you think. If you have any questions feel free to ask. We’d love to answer anything to the best of out ability.

None of this would be possible with you. THANK YOU!

~Colleen Tews

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Handling 2016's Final Stretch

As September comes to a close we have to look at the final stretch of months full of holidays and frivolity. October is nothing but candy and costumes. During November we will slaughter thousands of turkeys. December is so full of holidays it may explode from love, joy, and laughter! 

Am I right?

Sort of.

Ask most adults and they will tell you how much they want to bang their heads against the wall from the stress the Holiday Season brings to mind. There is an endless list of things to buy and crap to do. How can we help release some of that tension? 

We need to remember to find time for ourselves. If we don't take care of ourselves first we cannot take care of others. We can't follow our dreams. We won't be able to enjoy the good times. Breathe in the love.

Stop worrying about the fact that you are in the final quarter of the year. It is set. Schedule things accordingly. Don't bite off more you can. If you can't do something now then it will wait until the first quarter next year. That it is how it was supposed to be then. 

As for the holidays...You enjoyed them when you were a kid, right?

Recapture that feeling. Hold it tight. Wake up every morning and recall what it was like to put on your favorite costume, to delve into smooth pumpkin pie coated with whip cream, and to rush into your parents room in the wee hours of morning, jump on their bed, and wake them by pouncing upon them heads shouting Santa had arrived. 

Do you have plans for the holidays? Halloween is right around the corner. 
Dream Prophet: Awakening comes out October 15th Free for our Halloween Special.

Thank you,

Colleen Tews
colleentews.com

Monday, September 26, 2016

The Force Awakens A New Hope

What is it about Star Wars that keeps fans begging for more?

TNT ran episodes 1 through 6 all weekend in honor of Mark Hamill's birthday. Starz is running Force Awakens nonstop. DisneyXD has Star Wars Rebels. Rogue 1 opens in December. There are decades of books, the previous cartoon –Star Wars Clone Wars, a roleplaying game, a (gulp) Christmas Special, toys, lunchboxes, clothing line, and the list goes on. All of those items can be found in my house in some form or another.
 
But, why? I love Star Wars. I grew up with it. My daughters love it. Even River loves it. Unless Emperor Palpatine comes on the screen, then she runs under the bed. Seriously, the first time she did this I laughed my butt off. I laughed hard the second time, too. My husband is the BIGGEST Star Wars fan I have ever met. He has collectibles from the 1970s. Why can’t we get enough?

Is it Harrison Ford’s scruffy, nerd herding good looks? Is it James Earl Jones smooth, but ominous voice? The golden bikini!?! The buns!?! What is it???

It is intelligent without being arrogant. It doesn’t talk down to its audience, heck they laugh with their fans at themselves. And the story is classic.

Lets break down “classic” it gets tossed about easily. Classic, to me, means timeless. I can watch the movies a zillion times, leave the room, come back, know all the lines, and still be enthralled by half-ass watching it.

Luke Skywalker is today’s Hercules without the alcohol. I have heard some refer to the Star Wars Sage as a Space Opera and I can see that. When it came out though I think it gave hope when there was none. Today’s generation has known only war. When my youngest saw Force Awakens, turns to me and said, “I want to be Rey.” I was reminded that it is not a Space Opera, but our generations Greek Myths.

There is a reason superheroes are doing as well as they are doing at the box office. This is why Disney reached for both Lucas Film and Marvel, because they know people need dreams, they need hope. We are begging for A New Hope.

I look forward to your comments below. Whether you are a fan or a trekkie. I love Star Trek, too. So, please no hate mail. Speaking of mail, I am starting a private newsletter. You can fill out the contact info form on my website. I swear on BB8 I will never give or sell any personal information. I worked for a telemarketing company once that bought huge lists and the practice disgusts me.

May the Force be with you.

Colleen Tews


Thursday, September 15, 2016

Burning The Candle At Both Ends

Some of you may remember the big boom of eBusinesses that came and went in the late 1990’s/early 2000’s. I fear that same mindset may be happening due to the constant bombardment in ePublishing. You’re probably thinking this contradicts my push from my last post. To that I say nay nay. 

What this means is we have to shift gears. The market is changing. More people are purchasing online than ever before. Which is great for us. The ability to self-publish will not go away, but the way we will have to fight to get our name, our brand, out there will be ten times harder. Not that it would be any easier going with a traditional publisher, but that was Monday’s post. (see Why Become An Author Entrepreneur)

I recently read a post by Melissa Flickinger. She begged the question about “The Decline of the Book Blog Tour Era”. This was a nifty way for authors to market their books. Yet this well is running dry. I recommend reading her blog.

Another thing I have noticed is that I am preaching to the wind. I have joined Facebook groups, used all the right hashtags, and threw a Facebook event, too. The problem…I’m selling to my friends, to authors who are also trying to sell, but not to my market group. For that I need to reach my client base.

This month I am shifting gears. Not only am I writing Dream Prophet: Awakening for Halloween, but I am taking every class I can to better myself, better my business, and better serve you. I know enough to know what I don’t know. It is time to fill in the gaps and grow. No more burning the candle at both ends and praying I sell a book or two. It isn’t healthy for me. And it isn’t fair to all of you.

If you have any questions about this post please feel free to ask. Don’t give up on your dreams. Make them reality. Whether it is writing or growing an urban farm or whatever. I hope you can find inspiration from what I’ve said. I can be reached on Twitter @colleentews, Facebook, and Instagram.

Thank you,
~Colleen Tews

Monday, September 12, 2016

Why Become An Author Entrepreneur?

What is the definition of an entrepreneur?

Entrepreneur: (noun) 1. A person who organizes and operates a business or businesses, taking on greater than normal financial risks in order to do so.

                             2. A promoter in the entertainment industry.

What is an author?

Author: (noun) 1. A writer of book, article, or report.

OR

(verb) 1. Be the author of (a book or piece of writing)


Now when we combine those we get today's published writer. Most writers are not going with the big publishing companies. Why? Well, there are a lot of reasons. There are hoops upon hoops and far more promise of rejection. You'll still have to do 98% of the marketing yourself, if not 100%. They get the rights to your work. Which I believe is the biggest reason of all.

Lets break this down. You've slaved over your book. You sent it out to beta readers. You saved up money for a professional editor. Worked through the edits. Made it as perfect as you can. You crossed your Ts and dotted all the Is.

Next step: You break out the trusty excel spreadsheet and search every agent (or as I call them the first gatekeepers) the represent your genre. You research this for days. You create a special query letter, follow their rules, make certain every gender if addressed properly, and every Ms is not a Miss or a Mrs or vice versa. You cross your fingers, pray to the writing gods, and send. 

Many years ago some would write back with a thoughtful message thanking you. In most fields there is a phrase “no news is good news”. Not in publishing. Agents are so inundated with query letters that if they don’t want you they reject you by simply ignoring you. Which I believe it poor business. I understand why they say they do it, but I wouldn’t accept it from any other company. Why should they get away with it?

Moving on. Big publishing companies like to stay with authors they know will make money. Understandable. But this keeps them away from bringing in new names. Their fear has caused businesses like Amazon to grow in leaps and bounds. 

The promise of an advance is minimum. The money you get you’ll need to use to market yourself. The percentages you get from sales are split between the publisher, all their departments, the agent, and then you.

Heaven forbid you have a falling out with your publisher and you are halfway through a series. You have plans to go to another publisher or start your own company. You need your rights transferred for new editions published. Guess who needs a lawyer?

These are some of the reasons I have chosen to pick the route of an author entrepreneur. Less outside muss. Less outside fuss. More $$$ in my pocket overtime. Is it easy? Heck no. But it is worth it. If it were easy I don’t think I would do it. I like a bit of a challenge. This combines my love for writing and getting the books out there. 

If you are an independent author please tell us why you picked that route. If you’re a writer on the verge of publishing and have any questions please ask away. You can find me on Facebook and Twitter. The links are in the bar at the top of the page. 

Hope this was helpful. Thank you.
~Colleen Tews
colleentews.com 

Sunday, September 4, 2016

Words From The Wise To Your Ears

For awhile now I have been speaking about staying true to your, breaking your glass ceiling, and what it takes to make your dreams into a reality. This week I will be taking this first steps to take my independent publishing ways and building a boutique publishing house. While it is easy to dispense advice it can be hard to listen to one's own told-you-so's.

To help us all I have a video from The Pursuit*. I figure hearing expert words of wisdom from multiple sources will help us both. I love to learn something new every day. As they will mention in this video it is a good thing to do either way. 
Please leave your comments or suggestions below. I look forward to what you thought of today's post. I realize it is extremely different that my normal blogs. Thank you.

 ~Colleen Tews

 *I do not own copyright to the youtube video The Pursuit: Expert Advice on How To Get Started on Your Dream. Nor did I place the video for the public on youtube. I highly recommend looking them up on youtube or following them via iTunes.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Take Pride In The Little Things

The fastest way to feel like a success is in the little things. Fulfilling everyday life regularities will help you on your path. Sound weird? That is okay. We take for granted the same things like laundry, vacuuming, and washing dishes, usually because we dislike doing them. By rejoicing in small accomplishments we gather strength for those big bumps in the road on our way to bigger successes.

You might be thinking, “But, Colleen, I hate doing chores. They bring me down. Why do I always have to be the one to do them? It’s a stupid vicious cycle. NOTHING STAYS CLEAN!”

Guess what I hate doing them, too. Then I look at my pretty house and think this is my home. This is where I am proud to allow my kids to bring friends over to after school.

I’m no fool. After raising four daughters (two still live at home), enjoying the pleasure of a rascal of a dog not yet a year old, two cats, and a wonderful husband, I know that the house will not stay clean for long. That laundry will pile up in a blink of an eye, as will the dishes, and the garbage cans will fill until the dog will steal pieces away into my bedroom. The point of pride comes in knowing that these small hurdles are bearable.

If I gave let the mess get to me to the point where I hide from the world. To the point where I stop showering, stop washing clothes, stop caring for my loved ones, then how can I possibly tend to my dreams. It will wither on the vine.

Take pride in yourself. The people who love you already do. Why not you?

Please feel free to leave a comment or suggest below. I look forward to hearing from you. Thank you.


~Colleen Tews 

Monday, August 29, 2016

How To Break Your Glass Ceiling

There is always talk about breaking glass ceilings, particularly when discussing women in the work place. What about your personal glass ceiling? The limits we put on ourselves. Whether from our own negative thoughts, emotions, or physical restraints, let us not forget those that we let other place upon us. How do we break the confines our own gilded cages? Persistence. Perseverance. Patience.

 Persistence will take you to the edge of the ceiling. You will look upon the tips and look beyond to your dreams and aspirations that lay beyond. Do not ignore the negative comments of others but embrace them as fuel. They will ignite your fire. For one cannot have only positivity in their life. They will be off balance and fall. You need both the yin and the yang. If all you did were succeed then there would be no glass ceiling to break, nothing to learn from, and nothing to appreciate.

Perseverance gives you the strength to hold on the edge when you want to drop off. On those days when you want to grab a pint of chocolate chip cookie dough, crawl under the blanket, and watch a marathon of Outlander (instead of reading the books because you’re that tired and let’s face it Sam Heughan is HOT) this virtue enables you to punch through the roof. Shattering the pieces into a million and one shards. You will soar over the remains of the glass ceiling, remembering why it was made of glass in the first place, that it was made to be broken by you, and make your dreams real.

Patience is the best of the three. Be gentle with yourself. Rome was not built in a day. Yes, you have a dream, but it takes hundreds of people to make that dream a reality. I wrote a book. I published though Kindle, Amazon, Barnes and Noble. I do not own Kindle. I cannot make people read it. I cannot make publishers share it, promote it, review it, market it, shove it down people’s throat and then force them to leave a review! No, I am patient. I am diligent. As an independent author I have to do all this myself. Nowadays if the big publishers published me I would still have to do all this by myself, too. No matter what your dream you must be patient. One step at a time, don’t bombard yourself with having to do everything at once. Make a list. Start slow. Work with what you know to what you don’t know. Sounds weird, but you will soon discover what you do not know when you realize what you.

Remember there is a reason it is called a “glass ceiling” it is made to be broken. Be persistent and you will persevere with a little patience.

Please leave any comments or suggestions below. I look forward to hearing what you have to say. Thank you.

~Colleen Tews

Thursday, August 25, 2016

This Year's Direction With You

I have always been an advocate for dreams coming true, but some of my characters may wish that weren’t true. Thanks to your votes the next year will be a busy one for sleepyheads.

This Halloween we will see the prequel to Dream Prophet with Dream Prophet: Awakening. It will be a FREE novella available via Kindle. I will look into other digital outlets and keep you informed as things progress. This goes for the cover, Facebook parties, and twitter chats. Rhianne Leto’s origin story will be available October 15th, 2016.

Next comes the first full Dream Prophet novel in the spring of 2017. We will take the origin story and kick Rhianne Leto’s dreams and kick the nightmares, werewolf butt-kicking, and romantic interludes to the next level. After all, no one can escape their dreams; it’s all in their heads, right?

As the 2017 summer heat comes so too does the hot, long awaited Virus Within. The second novel in the Shadow Faith Series will be action packed, sexier than the first, and delves further into the abyss.

For those of you who have not read the first five star reviewed Birth of a Vixen I have one question…What are you waiting for? I would hate to post spoilers. I’ll be promoting Virus Within and you’ll be like “Whaaaaaaaat!?!”

Last, but not least, the Halloween Special Campaign was so much fun that I plan on doing it again next year. That’s right. A free novella every Halloween, voted by you, for you.


Please leave any comments or suggestions below. I look forward to hearing what you think. Links to Birth of a Vixen is provided above should wish you purchase a paperback or ebook. My website link is provided, too, should you wish to keep up-to-date or join my newsletter. Thank you. 

Monday, August 22, 2016

Free Halloween Special Winner!

First let me thank all of you for participating in this past week’s campaign. Whether you voted or supported by spreading the word none of this would be possible without you. You are the reason I do this in the first place. I could scribble in a notebook and tuck it away like I did when I was 12 years old. But the courage I get to share my work comes from each and every one of you. Thank you.

Over the past week readers from here, facebook, twitter, and instagram have been voting against two universes: The Shadow Faith Series or Dream Prophet. Whichever received the most votes will be in a FREE ebook this October as a Halloween Special.

The Shadow Faith Series novella would take place between books 1 and 2. There is a 10 years gap between the two. This novella will showcase other vampire’s trials, leaving Angela Vista out of it completely.

The Dream Prophet novella is a prequel to the book coming out in the spring of 2017. It will showcase Rhianne Leto’s life leading up to the chaos that awakens in her dreams. There will still be a werewolf or two….or three?

Without further delay the winner of this years Halloween Special is…..



DREAM PROPHET: AWAKENING

Once again thank you. This campaign was huge and a lot of fun. I hope to do it again next Halloween, too. Please let me know what you think.

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Authors Need Readers

Sad wisps of memory come to mind when I think about what brought me to this sorry state of affairs I am in. I try to recall an event that happened to share with you and I cannot remember just one. I am flooded with a thousand memories. They blur and run together like a wet oil painting or poorly mashed songs. It becomes overwhelming.

I wish I could say it was because I had one bad day. In truth I had too many bad days. Guess that is what separates the Joker and me. (For those of you who have not watched The Killing Joke I highly recommend it)

In some ways that crazy man and I have something in common, too. Persistence.

I had written how a good day for me was like. I got to noon and depressed myself so much that I didn’t even want to read the rest of the blog and thought why would you. This is not a place for pity parties. This is for rejuvenation. It’s s place for expression, for creativity, and for rebirth.

With glad tidings I wish to say THANK YOU! By saying thank you I am offering you a special treat but I need your help. For Halloween I will write a FREE novella. What I need from you is: Which universe do you want it to be from Shadow Faith Series or Dream Prophet?

Quick recap: Shadow Faith Series is about Angela Vista and the vampires. Birth of a Vixen is in that universe. Second book, Virus Within is due out next summer. Dream Prophet is about Rhianne Leto, werewolves, and witches. First book is due out next spring. Let us look towards something positive together. Please leave your suggestions in the comments below. I won’t know which one to write if you don’t tell me. None of this will be possible without you.
Thank you. ~Colleen Tews

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Short and Sweet

I am numb.
I have no tears, but feel as though I should be crying. Though I do not understand why.
My tickle spots feel the pleasurable touch. No laughter comes forth.
I want to sleep.
I need to eat. No food seems satisfying.
I wither away. 
There is a movie playing in the background.
It is one I like/liked. I know it by heart. I don't actually watch it. Don't need to. Don't want to.
Fear leaving my bed.
Today is a bad day.
The shakes.
The shimmers.
The pain.
Can't remember...certain...words
Can't focus.
There is a sharp spike drilling its way down into my brain, deeper along my spine.
No comfort.
No release...

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Believe In You

We have all heard the phrase before, “You are your own worse enemy” but how many of you believe it to be true? I sure as hell do.

In today’s society we are quick to blame the bully, the rejection letter, the boss, or whomever or whatever we want. I won’t even go political although I could. In the end it all comes back to you. Yeah, you the person reading this post, I see you.

My youngest daughter is going into middle school this fall. She crawls into bed with me one afternoon, because that is where I am stuck nowadays (again). We talk for a little bit before she says, “I hope no one picks on me this year.”

I sit up because a serious face-to-face conversation deserves respect. I turn her to me. “Honey, I hate to break it to you, but there will be bullies. There will be more bullied in middle school then there were in elementary school.”

Her eyes are huge. She’s frowning, about to cry.
 
I quickly continue. “Do you know why? And it has nothing to do with you?”

She shakes her head.

“When you are in a bad mood you do you take it out on other people?”

“Yeah, but I don’t mean to.”

“I know. You’re trying to learn to control your emotions and not let your emotions control you. Bullies are angry at themselves, at their lives, so they take it out on other people. They are scared so they lash out. You can’t take it personally because it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. Just let it roll off your back. It’s not easy, but it will make you stronger.”

When we don’t let it roll off our back we let that negativity build up inside us. It becomes easier to believe, leaving no room for anything positive. This creates a cycle of self-destruction from an early age. It stands in our way. It makes us believe we aren’t worth the dreams we hold dear, especially women. Not saying men are tougher than women. I believe it is a hormonal thing. Which SUCKS!

How do we handle this? Well, I’ll tell you how I handle it. Yoga. Chocolate. Contradictions, I know. Mediation. Coloring. Spray painting. Writing (duh, figured that was a given). Reading. Movies. In other words I do things I love. Things that inspire me, things that make me feel like me. Not what someone else think I am supposed to be.

Notice I didn’t put down hang out with friends. I love my extended family and friends but I rarely see them. Not by choice, by chance. I don’t need to see them everyday to know that they believe in me. The hardest part of my day is believing in myself.
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Thursday, July 14, 2016

Character Name is a Badge of Honor

What is in a name? A person’s ancestry, a definition of character can be discovered.

So this has me thinking about my own name, Colleen Ryan Tews. My maiden name, Colleen Ryan McEuen. Let me break this down for you.

Colleen definition: Celtic origin for girl. Simple enough. I was named after my aunt Colleen. She was my uncle’s first wife. My parent’s loved her dearly.

My middle name, Ryan, was almost my first name. Why? Because my mother LOVED the soap opera Ryan’s Hope. I shit you not. I was named after a freaking soap opera.

For those keeping tracking you may have noticed that the lead character in Dream Prophet is named Rhianne Leto. And your thinking, “Wow, she named her MC after herself. Ego much.”. That is where you would be wrong. I grew up with a little girl across the street whose first name was Rhianne, spelled this way. I loved it. I promised her years ago I would use her name in a book.

Where did I get her last name? Last names are very important. Take my maiden name for instance. When my family first came over here from across the pond it was spelled MacEuen. Which means Sons of Euen. After signing in at Ellis Island the “a” was replaced with an = sign under the “c”. I have no idea why.

I have seen a thousand different spellings of McEuen. My uncle told me that the reason ours is spelled Euen and why we have both Irish and Scot is because of clash of clans that resulted in a love affair. Seems the Scottish son of the head of the clan MacEwen fell for an Irish lass. The only way they could be together was by leaving the clan and starting a new one, Euen. Sounds like plausible and a great movie. I choose to believe it because I am a sap.

Now I chose Leto because in Greek mythology she was the Goddess who gave birth to Artemis and Apollo. Since Rhianne is a great werewolf hunter, witch, and her nightmares are her biggest problem, thus meaning she seems blessed during the day when the sun is up adds underlining strength to the character. Thus, Ms. Rhianne Leto was born.



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Sunday, July 10, 2016

Write What You Feel

What is the greatest writing tip I can give you?  Write from the heart.

I will never teach you where to put a comma or semi-colon. Nor will I explain how to start your story or the best way to hook your reader with a practiced word or turn of phrase. Why? Because I am not a teacher. I am a writer.

You want to learn these things? Read a book. Read a crap-ton of books. Take a class. This may sound crass, rude, or even indignant. Heck, I know this doesn’t sound like me at all. But I say this from my heart. Which is precisely where I told you to write from all along.

When you hear a song and each cord is struck just right you feel it. Goosebumps rise to occasion. Your feet tap. You feel the desire to move. You want it to move you, to let go. That is what it feels like to write from the heart.

The world falls away from you. You are transported to a new realm. In time the words are no longer words but truths that fall from the movie in your mind’s eye onto the blank page. That is how you engage all the senses.


Growing up English class was always referred to Language Arts. There is a reason for that; writing is an art form. If a picture is worth a thousand words then how much is your book worth that has 90,000?


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